That Saturday night John Arnott was ministering a wonderful message that I don’t remember ( but I plan to get the message). While He was ministering a man was so drunk in laughter He kept trying to get up and walk, but every time he would pick himself up and take a few steps he would be back down again. Until He was finally on his back feet kicking up in the air uproariously laughing. At that point I saw it the pastor was un disturbed by the mans behavior and continued with his message. I believe this is a picture of what Azuza street was about when it began. The Lord was in fact Lord of all, man did not interfere with the moving of the Holy spirit and trusted the Lord that if anything was out of order that God was fully able to deal with it.
The Lord spoke a few important things to me while I was there and taught me a few things about His kingdom which amazed me. He said "No evil thing shall come nigh your dwelling, and I am your dwelling place" It is your "Father’s pleasure to give you the kingdom" when you will or can not receive his goodness ( the kingdom ) or blessings or even receive the provision of healing you are resisting the will of God. When He opened my eyes to see that I was resisting His will I repented for resisting Him. Another thing was that I had been stiving in my efforts to bring about change in my own life and had not been trusting Him. This was a revelation because I was unaware that I had been resisting His goodness and desire to lavish blessing upon me, while striving against His wisdom.
He loved me greatly but because of my pain, my heart was untouched by his marvelous Love. As I struggled continually to trust Him, my pain ever before me, there was no way out which led to depression and despair. As a result I have never had true peace and did not even know what peace was. I had been striving with God, me and everyone around me in an attempt to resolve it. When I look back I could not even tell you what I had been doing because I had been living with the heart ache so long I was unaware how deep it went.
Now I am at peace like a river His peace floods my being and I at times weep simply because He is sooooo wonderful and I am sooooo greatful. Thank you Jesus I love you soooo much. I saw multiple healings about 50 to 60 people received gold teeth and more than one. I personally prayed for people who were healed and four who were gloriously delivered the Holy Spirit directing everything we all just followed His lead. Also Heidi Baker did pray for me the last wall pain with in me finally came down while she held me in her arms as I wept. God is good I know this, now it is established with in me. All I can say is I never knew just how wonderful He truly is although I did believe.
I was filled with the Holy Spirit in 1983, raised in the church that Benny Hinn pastored went to bible school in Tulsa, did some missionary work in Guatemala, while attending a church, when Tommy Tenny came, I saw in a vision of the Holy spirit fall like a Dove. Then the congregation ran to the alter in repentance that was Oct 1998. I have witnessed God deliver people from demonic oppression some miraculous healings Through the power of Gods’ in ministry, but I have never seen the Fathers heart on display the way I did October 19 to 23, 2005 at Toronto Airport Fellowship. How incredible His love, How beautiful His peace, His kindness in removing my pain after all these years coupled with the atmosphere of trust, and hunger for Him.
When Jesus is allowed to be Lord of all, these things taken together were the recipe for the truth of His kingdom which is gloriously on display. Clearly no eye has seen nor ear heard what He has prepared for those who love Him! Thank you Jesus for inviting me to participate in what you were doing that week end I will never be the same. Your adoring bride Debra Athanas
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